Hi,
I am feeling a bit down today. I seem to have one good day, one off day and today is the off day. I dislike how I feel and get very down when I am puffing and feeling faint as I even get ready in the morning and so I had a "melt down" today and was crying about it. I think that the FA kids are so brave when they have low haemaglobins and have lots happen to them. As a child, I had more of a carefree attitude even though I had lots of doctor's appointments. As an adult, it doesn't feel as carefree. You worry about every little thing and get really discouraged very easily. What I really notice is the difference in iron levels and how that is affecting me and it is a shock to my system and emotions. Other days I feel brighter, emotionally. Today I just feel down. I cannot wait until the oral fungal infection is gone either because it literally feels like I have a rock in my throat and I gag whenever I do something. That is miserable. I really admire kids like Nicholas Boggs who have so much to put up with but have a smile on their face most of the time. I know, as a human being, he would feel emotions as well...but he is such a trooper. Happy Birthday Nicholas! It is his birthday on the 10th! Be sure to wish him a Happy Birthday.
www.caringbridge.org/va/nicholas.e.boggs
This is his link
Anyway, I just needed to write some of my feelings down. I wonder if some iron tablets would help me..just a low dose. We will ring the specialist tomorrow to check that all is going well. I know I only see him on Tuesday but sometimes there are some important things to ask on the phone before you see them and Alan will be back at work on Tuesday so I want him to be able to ask some things as well. Mum will be coming to be with me on Tuesday. It will feel strange without Alan there that day.
So tonight we are trying to get to church for some worship. I have not been at church for many weeks because of sickness. Have no energy to get there in the morning and I know that around 5pm I will be very tired as well but I just want to be able to go for some worship and feel fulfilled again. We won't stay the whole service because of my energy levels but it will be nice. I am trying to do nothing at all today so I can get there.
Ok, I am going to have some late lunch.
Love ya all,
Charisse
8 comments:
Praying right now!
Psalms 13:5-6 But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the LORD, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.
Hi Charisse,
It was so good to talk to you tonight. Today I was listening to my Bible on CD and in Romans 3 or 4 it says something like, "God has the power to fulfill His promises." It was a passage about Abraham and his faith. It reminded me again of Isa. 61 and Psa. 91.
You will feel better as we faithfully pray for you every day.
Love you heaps and I look forward to spending Tues. with you.
Much love,
Mum
The Lord is always there to help in time of need! Praying right now!
Hebrews 13:6 So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
Thats so much better, i like the picture. Hope your feeling well. Look forward to seeing you on Wednesday when you get up.
Love Dazza xxx
Hey momma. I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and you are on my mind. I'm sorry you are so frustrated with your body and that it seems to keep failing you. Rest when you can. Try to get stronger. You are in my thoughts.
Lifting you up in prayer!
Psalms 27:14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
My dear friend, I am sorry I haven't signed your post before now. I am also sorry you have been feeling so down. I know you must be scared and worried. It is no fun being sick, even when you don't have FA, but with it I know from watching John that it can be worse. But God is still with you, as are many friends praying for you. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers always.
Judy
Continuing to pray so very hard!
Psalms 145:15-16 The eyes of all wait upon thee; and thou givest them their meat in due season. Thou openest thine hand, and satisfiest the desire of every living thing.
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