Plodding Along

Hello All,

well nothing too exciting going on...just plodding along. Last Friday I had an appointment with my Ob/Gynae doctor for a post-op appointment. It went well. I had been feeling better and going off pain meds and then the pain got worse again but I am told it is just post op pain and the tissues healing underneath the incision site...pulling and healing. The scar has been very dry and pealing and very tight so she said to massage sorbalene cream into it a couple of times a day. I have been doing that since then and already it is making a difference. Thick scab has been coming off and the dry skin is much better. I feel more supple already and it seems to be less painful moisturised. Hehe....my mother laughs at me but I cannot handle touching the incision site. Obviously just my mind...well it is sensitive and the nerve endings have been disrupted giving me a burning sore sensation. When I rub the cream in gently I feel a bit light headed! ha.....I have my mother's fainting genes! Sorry to spill the beans about you fainting lots mum! We are so alike! I have not had many pain meds today and am proud of it!

I have also started something natural to help with my hormonal imbalance that I was having trouble with. Hmmm...not sure if it is helping...it may be since I have not been breaking down in tears and not being able to stop crying. So that is positive. I also feel like I am coping better with Isaac in school. Coping better as in the concept that he is at school and not feeling completely lost. I am getting used to the routine of him finishing at 3.15pm. I still feel lonely at times but I am trying to make sure I have something to do each day to keep me busy. I am also taking my time in the morning, remembering that not having Isaac here will force me to rest and let myself heal from the operation! I am still not driving but I am thinking that after this week I will be able to drive! YAY!!!! I am going to find a thin piece of cushion or foam and put it under the seat bealt to protect me while I am driving. Who knows...I may feel weird with my first attempt because of how strange the incision feels.....might feel like fainting...haha! My belly from my belly button is all numb and strange feeling and I am told that this will last for a year because of how the nerves were disturbed. I don't remember feeling like this when Isaac was born. To do this operation they went through the same C-section scar that they used for Isaac...it is a little larger than the c-section scar. I must have had no feeling then as well but was probably too distracted with Isaac's very premature birth to think about it.

This Friday is my IVIG infusion again...4 weeks already. Please pray the reaction won't be so bad. I don't enjoy how I feel the week following IVIG.

Next Friday Alan's mum and I are off to a Christian Women's Conference for the weekend. I think it may be challenging for me but good for me. I am nervous and looking forward to it all in one! I am certainly not used to being without Alan! There are not many times at all where we have been apart.....except for the occasional hospital stay....even then the last hospital stay for my operation is the only one I have been alone. When I had pneumonia Alan stayed at the hospital with me on a bed. When I gave birth to Isaac, Alan also stayed on a bed with me in hospital.

Alan is not too well right now. He has a cold of some sort but the fact that he is tired and admitting he feels awful shows when he actually is sick. Otherwise, he doesn't let anything get him down physically.

In about one month Alan, Isaac and I will be moving house! We have a new house. We have had it for a while. I was not ready to move when we first got it. There is a story to how we got the house but I won't go into that. I am not looking forward to the physical moving. I have not even started packing! I have been too busy recovering but we will get some boxes and I will start packing! Carefully! We will be renting out our house that we live in now.

Well, I think that is all for now! Ha! I had a lot to talk about even though I said that there was not much happening! Thanks for reading my update and thanks for all the support!
Love Charisse